Eleven days to the biggest day of my life
Strangely, I am not nervous at all
Just exhausted
It's been a challenge planning the whole wedding and doing up the house simultaneously
But I know Papa is looking out for me
Smiling down and making things easier
That'll be all

It has been almost 4 months since I lost my father

It is exactly 39 days to my wedding

It has been 6 years complete with the King this week

Times flies

That'll be all

Papa

I’ve been searching for the right words to say

To express how I feel…

But the truth is

I’m left completely speechless

My last words to you every day were never ‘bye’ but ‘see you later papa’

And I will see you later…

You know its unbearably hot when you come out from a shower and break into a sweat!

That'll be all

Hey June
Be fun, happy, memorable and wonderful
Thanks in advance

That'll be all

I baked a cake in my new oven after almost 15 years
and I overbaked it by about 5 minutes
But it still tasted yum...

Cookies coming up next

That'll be all :)

You know life is changing when
you get excited about buying a
Dishwasher!

That'll be all

#100happydays

I'm attempting it on instagram #queenmatrai

That'll be all :)

There are some quotes that just make you smile and tingle with a certain je ne said quoi 
Read this :
she tucked her coral lipstick away
and floated back to the party
~ kate spade
That'll be all :)

I'm in an odd mood today
It's like all my emotions and moods have been blended together
And I'm not really sure how I feel
Or what to think
Or what to do
Hate this feeling.
That'll be all 

I don't know what it is about building virtual cities that always becomes an obsession.
Presenting my latest one : Virtual City Playground.
Let's see how long this one lasts.
That'll be all 

New friends have been made in 2013
And I get the feeling that these friendships will last
They say its not easy making friends as you get older
And yet, looks like its happening...
That'll be all 

I am currently lost in the world of Downton Abbey
It takes me into another world so different from mine and makes me wonder
Would I ever have survived as a Lady in that day and age?
That'll be all 

I for one am glad that January 2013 is almost over
It's been a shitty shitty month
Hoping for a better February
That'll be all 

The morning has started off on a bad note
And I am not looking forward to the rest of the day
Save me
That'll be all 

One of the new things I have started doing in 2013 is reading
Not reading to myself
But to a 9 year old special needs girl that can't manage to read on her own
Fairies, Monsters and chipmunks form major parts of the stories
Quite a change from 50 shades of Grey
That'll be all 

So, one week later and one more person close to me passes away
I lovingly called him 'Dada' and even though he was blind and couldn't see me
His eyes would light up every time I went to meet him just with the sound of my voice
And all of a sudden while brushing his teeth, he left us and said bye bye
I didn't cry
Not a tear
I'm all cried out
That'll be all 

This post is brought to you by the word "Surrender"
That's the word being considered and evaluated very strongly in my family at the moment
And I suddenly realised that my mother and I were using the word in two different extremes
Total complete Surrender vs raising a white flag and giving in
Both end objectives are the same though
Let's see how this pans out
That'll be all 

My mothers best friend passed away yesterday
She was like a sister to her and knew her since they were little girls
She was like a second mum to me and always played mediator when my mother and I would disagree
She passed in a blink of an eye, literally here one second and gone the other
I know my mother is going to miss her
But the truth of the matter is
I will too
That'll be all 

I had a wonderful holiday.
Last year I spent the stroke of the new year doing this.
This year I was amongst friends laughing till tears fell down my cheeks
I was sprayed with silly string and snow in a can till the King barely recognized me
I pranced and danced around enjoying every second of the new year till the sun came up
Happy new year all
Have a blessed one
That'll be all